I kinda want to be "bad"

[spreadingwarmth]

In October I'm going to have some time to myself which is uncommon. I've been thinking lately about getting desperate and peeing myself out in semi public.

The problem is I live in a higher density area and in a high rise building. I don't want to risk meeting someone in the elevator.

I'm thinking of doing it really late on a weekday night when there should be less people in general about. I also know an area not far with no street lights and it might be fun to do the wetting on that darkened street.

I've been thinking of hitting a thift store for some disposable clothes and shoes. Or bringing a bag and changing someplace quiet after the deed. Or maybe pulling on black sweats over soaked jeans to help hide things while still feeling wet? Although I'll probably get cold so maybe not.

Feels like a lot of work and not sure it's worth the risks but I've been thinking about it a lot lately.

[Fred]

I can see that the biggest problem is arriving back at your building and using the elevator without appearing to be wet. And we're getting to the time of year when wet pants outdoors will be uncomfortable. Perhaps you could settle for a smaller thrill by wearing an adult diaper or incontinence pad out in public and slowly relieving yourself in plain sight.

[spreadingwarmth]

Yeah the cold could be uncomfortable, I've dealt with that in the past. I suppose if I wet, put on a pair of black sweats over top, and quickly went straight home that might work.

I'm afraid the diaper option isn't interesting to me. Not part of my particular kink.

Maybe I could layer some clothes to allow some spurts of pee to soak around my crotch?

I debated just getting desperate while out in public and dealing with that thrill and/or taking the stairs when I got home (although there are quite a few flights of stairs to deal with).

[spreadingwarmth]

PS: Mostly I created this post, and am talking about it, because it's on my mind and I have no one in real life to talk about pee with.

I've been feeling mentally blah lately and I guess I needed a way to "verbalize" my thoughts "out loud" someplace.

This kink gives me equal parts joy and guilt.

[Fred]

This kink gives me equal parts joy and guilt.

If your kink doesn't harm anyone, don't feel guilty! Feel the joy, and those around you will benefit. (You don't have to explain the source of your joy)

[spreadingwarmth]

This kink gives me equal parts joy and guilt.

If your kink doesn't harm anyone, don't feel guilty! Feel the joy, and those around you will benefit. (You don't have to explain the source of your joy)

Thanks Fred. I've had up and down struggles with my fetish all my life. I honestly don't know what I would have done without the Internet when I was a young adult. It helps knowing I'm not totally alone although at the same time when I don't know anyone in real life I can share with that's can be hard at times too.

[evergreen]

I grew without the internet and certainly I could not really believe that other people out there enjoyed wetting themselves as much as I did. I began with a real accident which I really enjoyed and I wanted t to happen again and again. It would have been great to know someone I could have enjoyed it with. It was not till I heard a radio chat show where the topic of wet pants came up one of the members said, "just type in I love wetting my pants" and see what comes up!. I was amazed and realised with some relief I was not alone. My circumstances are such I keep my wetting to myself apart from on the internet but at least I know other guys enjoy the act as much as I do.

I really enjoy being 'bad'!

[Brian]

I too grew up without the internet, but in my case I assumed that everyone was interested in the subject of peeing. My big shameful secret was that I was gay (which I knew put me in a minority, and one which I couldn't talk about). But when I finally came out and met other gay men, I was surprised to discover that my interest in desperation and wetting was not shared by anyone else in the new circle of friends.

[spreadingwarmth]

I grew up without the Internet as well. When I was really young I would be more brace and even peed myself for fun when I was out playing (hid it by playing with the garden hose when I got back home).

Then puberty hit and self consciousness set in. I began to feel guilty and ashamed and truly thought I was alone.

After high school I happened to discover an ad for Wer Set magazine in a tattoo magazine. LOL I had to actually get a money order and mail it off to get myself a copy, times sure have changed. That is when I realized I wasn't alone anymore and once I got a home computer and Internet.... wow.

In some ways I wish I could be the person I am now only back when I was younger. Been braver and played more. I don't get to pee play anymore and I miss my younger more carefree days.

Perhaps with this upcoming free time I've become nostalgic and with that nostalgia the whole range of feelings has come with it.

[googlism2008]

I can identify with both the earlier and later posts of the OP... the fear of being found out is very great.

Provided that the weather is not too cold, a suggestion for a semi-public wetting is to get into an activity where you'd get drenched anyway. Running is probably the easiest, as you can choose to move into a secluded area, do what you wanted to do, and then reappear in public with nobody any the wiser.