Experiences in Dreams
Posted: 12 Oct 2023, 19:10
Now, most of us here have probably experienced a pee dream, given our predisposition... I thought I might offer a unique perspective. I'm a trans guy, year and a half on testosterone, but no surgeries. However, consistently in my dreams, I happen to be blessed with male anatomy!
Nothing sexual ever happens, ironically, usually I'm just in a bathroom marveling at the sudden change. But of course, you guys are here for when I don't make it to a bathroom, so let's focus on that . To start off, usually the feeling of a full bladder is massively exaggerated. I'm talking "stop everything you're doing and hold on for dear life" bursting-at-the-seams here. I think I've only ever managed to hold it once or twice, when I had only sorta realized it was a dream but was still convinced pissing myself was a real threat. I remember one dream had me at this beach, for whatever reason I didn't go in the ocean and there were no toilets, and suddenly the pressure was just agonizing! I doubled over, grabbed my crotch, squeezed my legs together and thought very, very hard about keeping an impossible amount of liquid inside. If you've ever felt on the very verge of bursting, the second before you leak, imagine that feeling stretched out for way too long. I could feel my muscles going haywire, between my bladder contracting and sphincter relaxing, nearly winning the fight as they pushed warm liquid up my shaft. I don't know how I managed to fight off that wave, but just a bit later there was now a party on the beach, my bladder was still full, and I couldn't hold it anymore. Another surge of desperation hit me and warm liquid rushed into my pants- I could even feel the fabric soaking it up. I felt embarrassed, but I've actually found no one really reacts to me wetting myself in a dream.
You would think, with details that vivid, I'd be wetting the bed every other night. Yet, I never actually go! Often I wake up lying on my stomach, full bladder awfully snug between myself and the mattress, explaining why I felt so desperate. I stopped wetting the bed when most people did in childhood. This actually leads to my most common (and favorite) pee dreams- Long, drawn out sequences where toilets are incredibly rare, and when I do find one I can only describe them as "weirdly threatening". I dreamt once that I was walking through an airport, I didn't have a flight to catch, but I was desperate. I was wondering through all these long hallways- there were bathroom signs, and every time I turned a corner there'd only be another, endlessly promising relief that was never going to turn up. I was getting antsy and impatient, pressing my thighs together... that unbeatable urge hit me and I wet myself in one of the hallways. With my need taken care of I decided to go back to the airport lobby and hang out... except I was instantly desperate again! I ended up doing the process over and over, never realizing the bathroom signs lead to nowhere.
Other times I'll find toilets in odd places, like a classroom or in the middle of a city. Or I'll run into a bathroom only to find the stalls don't have doors or dividers, the toilets are arranged oddly, all manner of "no privacy" situations. At that point I've probably just run in ready to burst, and I have to decide whether I should risk getting caught with my pants down or find another restroom. Sometimes in the time it takes to decide I end up wetting myself anyway. One time I was in my own home, I ran to the bathroom and starting peeing as I opened the door. I tore off my pants and started gushing everywhere... it was one of the first dreams where I got a little lucid and realized I had male anatomy, way before I even knew what being trans was. It was a bit of a funny scene- my real life bladder wasn't emptying, so I wasn't getting any true relief, so my brain decided I should keep peeing everywhere until I did. But I was distracted by my dream body, so I didn't bother walking to the toilet that was only three feet away from me. I had some boyish fun aiming my stream in different directions Eventually the dream faded out and I woke up, dry as ever. But considering I'm here now, it certainly had an impact on me.
Hope y'all enjoyed that! I just find it interesting, since these sensations feel so vivid but are technically made up. I can't actually know what it feels like (unless one of you generous souls has $50,000 lying around), but my subconscious apparently does its hardest to fill in the gaps. I don't think I've ever had a dream with female anatomy, it's surprisingly consistent. As a side note, I've also always had dreams where I have big, bushy beard, and I spend a while just staring at myself, feeling it. Well, a year and a half on T and I'm about halfway there, I've got a scrappy, patchy, not-quite-a-beard I'm rather proud of By the way, don't be scared to talk about the trans thing. Some forums I've been on people get nervous, I'd much rather people be a little clumsy than not talk at all. In some places of the internet I've noticed omorashi circles with a lot of trans guys actually, others notice it too. And just wait till you guys hear about STP devices
Nothing sexual ever happens, ironically, usually I'm just in a bathroom marveling at the sudden change. But of course, you guys are here for when I don't make it to a bathroom, so let's focus on that . To start off, usually the feeling of a full bladder is massively exaggerated. I'm talking "stop everything you're doing and hold on for dear life" bursting-at-the-seams here. I think I've only ever managed to hold it once or twice, when I had only sorta realized it was a dream but was still convinced pissing myself was a real threat. I remember one dream had me at this beach, for whatever reason I didn't go in the ocean and there were no toilets, and suddenly the pressure was just agonizing! I doubled over, grabbed my crotch, squeezed my legs together and thought very, very hard about keeping an impossible amount of liquid inside. If you've ever felt on the very verge of bursting, the second before you leak, imagine that feeling stretched out for way too long. I could feel my muscles going haywire, between my bladder contracting and sphincter relaxing, nearly winning the fight as they pushed warm liquid up my shaft. I don't know how I managed to fight off that wave, but just a bit later there was now a party on the beach, my bladder was still full, and I couldn't hold it anymore. Another surge of desperation hit me and warm liquid rushed into my pants- I could even feel the fabric soaking it up. I felt embarrassed, but I've actually found no one really reacts to me wetting myself in a dream.
You would think, with details that vivid, I'd be wetting the bed every other night. Yet, I never actually go! Often I wake up lying on my stomach, full bladder awfully snug between myself and the mattress, explaining why I felt so desperate. I stopped wetting the bed when most people did in childhood. This actually leads to my most common (and favorite) pee dreams- Long, drawn out sequences where toilets are incredibly rare, and when I do find one I can only describe them as "weirdly threatening". I dreamt once that I was walking through an airport, I didn't have a flight to catch, but I was desperate. I was wondering through all these long hallways- there were bathroom signs, and every time I turned a corner there'd only be another, endlessly promising relief that was never going to turn up. I was getting antsy and impatient, pressing my thighs together... that unbeatable urge hit me and I wet myself in one of the hallways. With my need taken care of I decided to go back to the airport lobby and hang out... except I was instantly desperate again! I ended up doing the process over and over, never realizing the bathroom signs lead to nowhere.
Other times I'll find toilets in odd places, like a classroom or in the middle of a city. Or I'll run into a bathroom only to find the stalls don't have doors or dividers, the toilets are arranged oddly, all manner of "no privacy" situations. At that point I've probably just run in ready to burst, and I have to decide whether I should risk getting caught with my pants down or find another restroom. Sometimes in the time it takes to decide I end up wetting myself anyway. One time I was in my own home, I ran to the bathroom and starting peeing as I opened the door. I tore off my pants and started gushing everywhere... it was one of the first dreams where I got a little lucid and realized I had male anatomy, way before I even knew what being trans was. It was a bit of a funny scene- my real life bladder wasn't emptying, so I wasn't getting any true relief, so my brain decided I should keep peeing everywhere until I did. But I was distracted by my dream body, so I didn't bother walking to the toilet that was only three feet away from me. I had some boyish fun aiming my stream in different directions Eventually the dream faded out and I woke up, dry as ever. But considering I'm here now, it certainly had an impact on me.
Hope y'all enjoyed that! I just find it interesting, since these sensations feel so vivid but are technically made up. I can't actually know what it feels like (unless one of you generous souls has $50,000 lying around), but my subconscious apparently does its hardest to fill in the gaps. I don't think I've ever had a dream with female anatomy, it's surprisingly consistent. As a side note, I've also always had dreams where I have big, bushy beard, and I spend a while just staring at myself, feeling it. Well, a year and a half on T and I'm about halfway there, I've got a scrappy, patchy, not-quite-a-beard I'm rather proud of By the way, don't be scared to talk about the trans thing. Some forums I've been on people get nervous, I'd much rather people be a little clumsy than not talk at all. In some places of the internet I've noticed omorashi circles with a lot of trans guys actually, others notice it too. And just wait till you guys hear about STP devices