I kinda want to be "bad"

[spreadingwarmth]

It's strange (for me) but there is a tiny part of me that wants to lose control in front of someone. Like being helpless to stop even if I wanted to.

I've never experienced full loss of control before. I've been so desperate my breath has been ragged and I can't stand up straight as I rush to the tub and let go. But in those situations it's more of a surrendering to the moment. A giving up and letting it happen rather than my body taking over and making me pee my pants.

I've been thinking about going out someplace further away and leaving at closing time (late) and then taking the bus home. Being forced to wait in my seat trying not to give anything away.

Then getting off the bus early so I have to walk a longer distance home. Walking down the quiet streets with my hand in my crotch holding back the flood. Trying to get home or to my safe darkened street (the one with no street lights) so I can safely release.

Will I make it that far? Will I miscalculate and leak on the bus or during my walk? Maybe someone will see my desperation and I won't be able to hide my need exposing the fact that I'm on the verge of helplessly flooding myself.

LOL I probably won't do any of that. Get impatient and go home and leak there.

Actually calculating need can be tough. Sometimes I drink only a little before frantic other times I feel like I'm waiting forever.

Edit: I got so caught up in the fantasy I forgot to explain why it's strange for me to want to be spotted or embarrassed. That normally isn't my side of the fetish. I was very much into pee playing safely or watching others losing control.

I mean I still am but in some of the stories I've read, where the guy can't pee yet and is on the verge of having a hot accident down his legs (with a manager or teacher or someone watching him) I find myself imagining myself in the position rather than watching it. Being desperate to last out and not soak myself in front of them, embarrassed that my need got the better of me. Oh no it's too late, I couldn't hold it. The flood of hot urine swimming around my balls is almost as hot as my embarrassment on my face.

I've been getting into male desperation and wetting these last few years (has it been years already, where does the time go?) seeking it out in equal parts to female desperation. I find it more specific and focused but also enjoy it more in some ways.

I guess fetishes can grow and evolve over time.

[Keith]

I am a bit younger at 25 so didnt 'grow up' without internet . When I was younger I had no interest in myself being desperate. However I use to always be a rascal of a kid and run into the toilet as someone was about to go. I hadn't hit puberty and this was at family events so ofcs had no sexual thrill about it I just thought it was funny to make someone wait. It wasn't until I got the internet i randomly came across a video very similar to the 'Charles needing a piss one' where I was confused why I enjoyed it as much. When I got to 14/15 I started to get excited seeing men desperate and no longer found it funny when family had the issue this was when I realised that it was a sexual thrill and why obviously that ruled it out with family.
I kept it a secret for many years as I had a few girl friend at the time. I was confused why I still loved this girl but also found males attractive. Where i grew up although not perfect homosexuality isnt frowned upon as much as in other areas so I was never worried that I could be gay. However at school bisexuality wasn't really mention in any education it was gay/straight. Although not interested in woman desperate to pee I still have sexual tensions to woman in other ways wasn't until 19/20 I worked out it was bisexual and a good looking man in need to pee is something that I like and proud to say it's a well established fetish of mine .

[evergreen]

There is always washing the car. Always good for a pair of wet pants!

[Sam69]

I understand your predicament.

First step is to accept the fact that someone will see you in wet pants because you have lost control of your bladder.

If you just can't allow this to happen, then I suggest you rely on some great pretending.

If you are willing to consider others seeing you pee your pants, then you need to find a place to do it besides in your neighborhood.

Scope out a place. The setting you need is one where the toilets are far away. Drink and guzzle your heart's content until you really can't hold it anymore. Then start your journey. When it happens you will be seen trying to avoid an accident. Even the police will be sympathetic. I can assure you that most people shopping won't give a hoot.

Also, there needs to be a change of clothes. Something different than what you are wearing. If you are dressed for work, a change into shorts and a top for running or working out in a gym could be what you choose. You don't want to wear clothes you would wear to work and also carry another set of work clothes to wear after you've wet your pants. That might invite unwanted questions.

This has to be taken by those that see it happen as a true accident. Especially if someone sees who knows you, it has appear as a true accident.

Have your alibi ready. The reason this happened was that perhaps you were running late to catch the bus and you knew you needed to go, but thought you could hold it. But you couldn't and that is the end of your explanation. You have been having some problems lately. You needed to go back (where ever) and couldn't go and then this happened.

If caught, keep your sense of humor.

If getting caught would truly upset you. you aren't ready to do it yet. You can role play this at home. Once you have lost control of your bladder, but before urine gets on anything, get to the shower or tub and finish there. You can go ahead and rinse out the peed in clothes before putting something dry on.

No need to have to replace the furniture in the TV room every time you play this game with yourself.

One last comment. If you do a role play at home or in public write down the events when they are fresh. You can then post your story here in first person as in the first thing I did was.....then I.... and so on.

I suspect we all will "enjoy" reading of you holding it until you really lost control of your bladder!

[Fred]

If you want to lose control in front of "someone" but really don't want to face the embarrassment and repercussions of a public wetting, set up a video camera in the privacy of your home and let it "see" your eventual disgrace. Then you can share the video with a select audience or simply play it for your own enjoyment.